Abramelin, day 210

Morning and evening rites went well.

Crazy intense dreams all last night, don’t know what to make of any of them.

Face to face interview with what appears to be a good company. Fingers crossed.

Worked after in Salem doing tarot readings. Did well.

Lots to do and think about. Evening rite went well.

 

 

Abramelin, day 208

Morning and noon rites went well.

I spent today dealing with a job interview, recruiters, etc. Made appt for doctor visit tomorrow as I’m fairly certain I have a sinus infection. The weather has been HORRIBLE as have my stress levels so not shocked.

I have an entire rant I don’t have time for at the moment about jobs and what this entire society has been brainwashed into thinking is normal, but I’ve summed up my issues with this: recruiters believe they own me. Employers believe they own me. And I am tired of it.

Evening rite went fine but done in bed. Was so drained I couldn’t even move let alone get into the temple room. Tomorrow is another day.

Abramelin, day 207

Morning rite went well. Noon prayer rite done in car on way to work, got called in for a shift to do readings again but had to leave early for an appointment.

I’m starting to stress about the interviews and I’m realizing how much I intensely hate this entire process, my main career, and how badly it drains me. Half a day for these interviews, all of them. And these people think I’m still employed as all of them were scheduled when I was.

There has to be a better way.

Evening rite done in bed, was suffering from horrible stomach pains. I blame it on trying to eat too much for dinner after not having eaten much past few days.

Abramelin, day 206

Morning rite went well, noon prayer rite barely happened but got it in.

Worked again today doing tarot readings,had one person tell me I gave her the best 15 minutes of my life. She badly needed to hear what I had to say. Was grateful to help.

Dealing with some congestion and trying to fight back with increased fluids, juicing, sleep, homeopathy.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 205

Had a dream that I upset someone who thought I was Catholic while doing this rite when in fact I am a polytheist. My sole reaction was, “You’ve known me for how long and it’s taken you THIS long to figure out that I’m a polytheist? What?” Odd dream.

Morning rite went well, noon prayer rite done late. Too much going on.

I’ve never before this year had any requests let alone this many to do readings to see how loved ones are doing on the other side. Sign from Hermes, I take, to get my ass in gear on the mediumship stuff. What vibes am I giving off?

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 204

Morning rite and noon prayer rite well.

The second person last night in the past week told me the same thing: that something is going on with me where I am not communicating what I feel and I am about to explode. The first person was looking at my aura and chakra reading and came up with it, now last night similar deal. Given how ridiculously outspoken I am I can only think of a few things this could possibly elude to. But given more than one person has told me this, I cannot ignore it. Hm.

So. Many. Readings. Very busy yesterday.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 203

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Spent today at the Salem job, did pretty well–even got requests for me as a reader. Crazy amount of time spent in psychic zone and as usual, was totally riding the high until I got home and absolutely crashed.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 202

Morning and noon rites went well.

I keep stopping to jump up and down and dance for joy that I am no longer in that job. I had no idea how much stress it was putting me through until it was over. Spoke to my agency about it and they saw the lying my boss was doing, put a very bad taste in their mouths and they are not happy.

They called back some hours later with a potential position and one that wants to move quickly: a 100% remote position. It would mean less money but HOT DAMN that is what I need to turn this ship around and work on getting the side career(s) to the point where they would be more viable.

I didn’t sleep well last night, heading to bed early tonight.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 201

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

At 11:03 the two following things happened simultaneously:

  1. I had a meeting with my boss which was openly hostile, including outright lying to my face about what has been said and done over the past few days let alone months. Was actually surprised I was not fired during that meeting.
  2. I got an email from the wand maker saying that the wood to be used for my almond wand was damaged and it would take at least another month or two to get more wood.

There are no coincidences. In any event, some hours later I am out of a job despite best efforts because it is not believed I will finish on time. I am honestly RELIEVED because while not the worst job I’ve ever had, is easily at the #3 or #4 position. And I’ve had a LOT of jobs.

Gods I’m glad that’s over. Now I have time in my life to get the rest of my shit done AND I can work extra hours at the part time job in Salem too. Bonus!

Evening rite went well. All is in the hands of the gods.

 

Abramelin, day 200

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

200 days of this operation. Do I get a cookie?

Another phone interview today but they revealed at the end it’ll require 20-50% travel. Nonononononononononono. Next!

Face to face interview with yesterday’s phone interview company scheduled for next Friday. It’s near where I used to work, excellent commute. Fingers crossed.

Been feeling tense and irritable for much of the evening, not sure why. Way too much going on, I think, and all of the recruiter calls and emails while trying to work isn’t really helping.

Boss wants to review the work I’ve been doing so far, again, tomorrow. Yes, that’s probably contributing.

Evening rite went well.